I Don't Understand

For the amount of positive effort I put into life, it doesn't seem like I'm getting nearly half of it back.

I'm either blind or maybe it's stockpiling up for something great.

Like the ability to breathe underwater or fly.


I'm waiting, Universe.

It's Been Dayyyyys

Sorry about that. But I'm so busy.
I feel I will be doing a lot more blogging (and hopefully vlogging) because I just bought my first netbook! All on my own!

I'm a

BIG 

GIRL.

I'll probably do a review in a couple weeks on the netbook. So far I'm totally loving it, though. I understand why Jake loves chicklet keys so much now. Totally a great noise and the feel of the keyboard!

I mean, I might be uber poor now, but that's ok! I get paid in a week! Wooh! I don't know if I mentioned it, I believe I did but I started part-time at Michaels Craft Store. It's a lot of fun. A lot of time I just walk around restocking which sucks, but on some days it's really fun. Like last Wednesday I put a bung of (creepy) scarecrows up on the isle sections. It was a simple task and something new. I decorated the store! Wooh!

Isla Vista is been a great adventure for me. It's such a new environment and great experience. I get along with all my roommates swimmingly. We go out at least once every weekend and it's so much fun. Even for me who doesn't drink or smoke. I get to go dancing and go crazy. So great. That's all I want to do is dance!

I miss Jake even crazier, though. :c We have been keeping great contact and I am visiting him the 11-14th for his bdaay weekend. I am making him a very special gift, but will not disclose the information right now due to his random viewing of this blog. But I am really proud of my idea. And my idea for his xmas gift is awesome! It is going to be a real bitch, but worth the effort if I can manage it! Wooh again!

I wish I had more to talk about. Japanese class is great, I'm really enjoying it. I've also been getting really 'expressive' with my fashion. Haha. I have defiantly weirded out a few people. The last week I have been pretty lazy, though. Just haven't really felt it.

My roommates have also declared me 'Mom.' And treat me as so. But as the designated babysitter it's only natural. 

Ok, this is going no where now. My housemates are too distracting. :)

YES YOU ARE.

<3

I'm Hiding

I'm taking a personal "bathroom" break right now. I haven't updated in almost a month, but I have a job at Michaels now. It's seasonal, but if they like me I can stay.

I know ladies week is approaching fast. I'm already fighting off a cold and am bloated to no end. Also, I got a sudden very strong wave of 'holy shit I miss Jake' emotions. I always miss him, but this is PMS trying to make my life hell.

I am very tired and just with to cuddle up in the soft, noisy sheets of Jake's bed. It's always very cool and the sound of the fan above is familiar and comforting. I am going home for the weekend in a little under a month for his birthday. I don't want to wait that long. It's been almost 3 weeks since he visited and that makes me very, very sad. I'm having a great time in SB. I really do feel like I'm finding myself here on my own. It's also helping me put my priorities in order.

Being surrounded by crafts at work makes thing very pleasant. I have so many ideas for what I want to do. So many gifts I want to send home.

Ok. Hopefully I'll update more later. Time to get back on my sour feet and make that money!

300 Ab Challenge - Day 2

I'm damn sore from yesterday so I went easy on myself today. After I did the first couple sets I was stretched out enough that the pain was doable to finish. But I still babied myself. My legs are really sore too, which surprised me at first. I'm not looking forward to tomorrow. But I read another person's experience was after the 4th day, the soreness didn't effect them nearly as bad. I hope that's the same with me. I think I made the pain stronger by jogging/running yesterday. Might try again tomorrow, but will probably end up just walking.

Well I'm tired.
Night XoxoxoX

Lolita in Goleta #1

So first things first, Goleta is pronounced go-leet-uh. Now the total sounds way cooler.

Today was the first day I wore lolita here in SB/Goleta (Goleta is about 10 miles north of SB). I only went half lolie (see image below) today. The main reasons for that are 1.) It's warm out and 2.) I didn't want to freak out the house mates.

I did a lot today; went to SBCC (unsuccessful), Albersons, Von's, Costco, Home Depot, Ross (got new running tennies) and a smoke shop (for JD). The cashier at Albersons said he liked my outfit and would have given me a piece of candy if he had any but have us the store discount instead since neither of us have Albersons cards.

Side note: Stella is so fucking hyper and rambunctious right now it's driving me bonkers.

I also started the 30 Day/300 challenge to start shaping my abs. I feel a bit site and jogging for 10 minutes didn't help. But I need to get some athleticism back. I didn't appreciate how fit I was when I played basketball because I thought that was just normal for me since I played for 8 years solid. But now that I can't even run a fucking block, I feel so pathetic. Jake started rising his bike, too. It's nice we are both taking care of ourselves. I decided to make walking/jogging/running my drinking. If I feel like I really 'want' to drink, I will go on a walk/jog/run instead. Healthier for my body and relationship. :)

Played more (sober) beer pong. Won both games I played (I think). I'm starting to understand why people enjoy it do much. I have an advantage because I stay sober the whole time, but I suck so it balances out. After that we played Blur and then L4D2. I didn't really feel like it though since A was sufficiently drunk and easy mode was difficult (manages to finish the ending on my own, though). We watched Dazed and Confused. It was a good 70's movie. Lots of actors that later become famous.

My Jeffrey Campbell shoes should arrive in the next two days. I'm so excited! I've wanted them for a while and feel it was a good purchase. :)

That's all for today. I miss my YouTube channel. :( Need to vlog soon.

Also miss Jake like crazy. A played Less than Jake in the car and it stung (he didn't know).

Stella is all tuckered out now and so am I.

Night.
XoxoX

The Adventure: Night #3

I might eventually edit this post. I'm on my phone because we don't have Internet yet.

This is my third official night of The Adventure. Stella and I arrived here last Sunday night around 9pm. Stella barked at me a little bit and didn't eat/drink/use the litter box on the way down, but she slept and smiled so i knew she was ok. :) Her cage took up 2/3 of the cab in the truck!
That night, I stayed up for a little bit and hung out with the guys, but passed out pretty early. I was physically and emotionally exhausted.

I had to say my (temporary) good bye to Jake and it was so hard. My face was on over-drive so I was a slobbery mess. Not surprisingly, Jake kept his composure and still has. He is always the super strong one. I know he misses me, though. He calls me every day and we even talked for 35 minutes. :) I thought I would have to pry the phone calls out if him but he's been calling me and it's nice.

I met L for the first time. We (I, really) lucked out in picking him kinda blindly. He's very nice and even made us chow mien!
The guys threw a little party last night. Still learning the lingo since I am a huge stranger to all of this, but it might have been considered a 'kickback'. There were a decent amount of people, all the girls got really drunk. I was scared they were going to puke in our bathrooms. After I used our bathroom upstairs, I left the light and vent going so it appeared occupied. I DON'T want to clean up some random's vomit (yet).

I will admit I felt crazy outta place, but after a little bit of just watching them, I felt better. I was still the weird girl with tea instead of alcohol, but I'm sorta proud of that. Don't get me wrong, I've tried it and I'm not sitting there judging them all or anything. I just don't drink but enjoy crowds and loud music.
I also already know I will be a weird girl in IV. I haven't yet (too hot and lazy during the day) worn lolita or the necomimi (need batteries) but as soon as I do I know I'm starting a reputation for myself. I don't mind the idea of that, though.

They should be good for now. Kinda a lame night, but I did just play L4D2 with Al on the Xbox. It was something familiar so I felt less sad about missing Jake. I went on a walk and watched the ocean for a few earlier tonight. Thought it might help me since I was in a bit of a funk, but not really.

Good Night~

Ps: I also miss my soulmate. I didn't get to see her before I left. :(

Bucket List

I'm going to (hopefully) add to this as I go.

Here is a list of how I want my future to go/turn out:

1. Move (going to Santa Barbara in T-5 days!)
2. Live in San Francisco for at least 1 year
3. Own 100 pairs of heels: 8/100 (get a closet like Big made for Cary in the Sex and the City movie)
4. Buy a pair of shoes costing at least $700
5. Own at least 50 lolita dresses (not necessarily at the same time)
6. Get engaged to Jake :3
7. Marry Jake <:3 (he'd be so mad/embarrassed if he saw these >:3)
8. Wear a beautiful white uchikake/kimono as a wedding dress - with purple accent to match my hair
9. Keep my hair purple/some color for as long as I want.
10. Design and make at least one line of clothing (for myself or others)
11. Make a 80% of a Thanksgiving dinner (turkey must be included or does not count)
12. Buy a house with Jake and Stella :)
13. Have at least $10,000 in my savings account by the time I'm 27
14. Wear Necomimi in at least 3 different countries/continents outdoors
15. Travel to at least 5 different places on the planet (previous destinations & Japan don't count - see 16)
16. Live in Japan for at least 1 year, with Jake
17. Become certified as a sonographer
18. Work as a GoGo dance (no stripping)
19. Get to 100 vidoes on YouTube
20. Get vampire teeth/dentures
21. Have a kid/kids (with said Future Husband)
22. Get a degree in something I want to/love to do (hopefully before the age of 30)
23. Learn to knit (HEY MARIN)
24. Try modeling
25. Get my wings tattoo on my back and the "I Love You :3" on my fingers
26. Open my Etsy shop and get it going
27. Be and inspiration/mentor to someone
28. Be healthy and maintain a healthy weight&&lifestyle for ME 
29. Own enough books to have a mini library or 4 full bookcases with 5 levels each
30. CLEAR SKYRIM FULLY AT LEAST ONCE
31. If I become a wardrobe coordinator for video games/animation, work for Pixar
32. Work at Baby, the Stars Shine Bright or Angelic Pretty for at least one summer
33. Get my lip & septum re-pierced + double tragus on my left ear
34. Work at a job I love and get paid enough to support myself
35. Live a full/happy life (by my standards)

That was really fun. :)