3 Months Later...

My life has taken so many different turns in the last three months.
I'd like to say good ones.
I am on track for school and have a legitimate plan. I don't think I mentioned, but the program at my JC has a two year waiting list AFTER the general requirements are finished. I was super mad when no one said this earlier, even though I talked to a couple counselors and checked the online information about it. But there is a specialty school back home in the bay managed by Kaiser so hopefully I can transfer there next January.
Right now, I am looking for a new roommate. Marin and Owen got into UCSB and will be my house mates, but I can't afford a single. :C I wish it could be the three of us and Stella, but sadly I must find a fourth. The place we like is really, really nice and would be easiest to secure if we had the fourth person.
I might have mentioned at some point that Jake applied to UCSB. I have no clue why, and he just 'happened' to forget to mention it to anyone. He's so cute. But he's going to Santa Cruz. He turned in his apps late so most likely won't hear back until the end of April. I'm hoping we have a place secure by then. I'm really excited for Fanime at the end of May. I find myself in a better mood now because I have something to look forward to. My spring break just ended and I was a slobbery mess after Marin dropped me off.
Marin, Veronica and myself went to visit their friend Anne in LA. So I bummed a ride down back to SB. It was Easter Sunday when we headed home and that was really a killer for me. Easter is usually like Thanksgiving for my Mom's side of the family; an excuse to get the whole family together and have a glorious meal. I was back at my place in SB wit Stella and Alex was the only other person home (we aren't really on speaking terms anymore) so that wasn't a big help at all.
But back to Jake; I really, really, want him to get into Santa Cruz. He would be so happy and it would be fantastic for him. He's totally convinced himself he won't get into anywhere. The greedy girlfriend part of me wants him to just get into UCSB and be my roommate. Murphy's law says that as soon as I secure a roommate, this will happen. But the supportive, reasonable girlfriend part of me knows he belongs at Santa Cruz. There is a good chance he would end up miserable in this IV environment.
Speaking of IV, I am totally done with this place. Or at least where I am now. Marin and Owen want to live in IV because it's next to UC campus, and I think I can handle that.
Marin and I decided we are so different about our relationships compared to other college couples because we are 'already married.' It's true, we totally have the mindset of married couples. I like that. I like knowing I have this super solid chunk in my life that no matter what, I can always return to, actually married or not.

The past month I have been really active with my health. One day I was looking in the mirror and said "You need to go on a jog." And I actually did! I was bloated and PMSing like a mofo so I wasn't very body friendly but I kept it up ever since. I only did it twice the first week but for almost three weeks after I jogged every day and did some ab and glute work. Spring break made it hard to keep up, but I did a couple times. I decided it was my vacation so it was fine. I did it two or three times but still ate healthy. Seeing my friend Kendall work so hard as she begins her journey as a C class body builder/bikini competitor is super inspiring. She has been giving me tips and pushing me and I love that.
I lost about four pounds in two weeks! Sadly, because my lack of work over break I gained a couple back but am back on the horse now. I'm not in it for the weight loss, I really just want to take care of myself. It also makes me feel, really, really good. My attitude is much better these days and I just feel great.

I am trying to make more friends but it's not going so well. I'm not good at the whole social thing, that's where Jake comes into play. He's the one who can keep conversation up, I never know what to say. It's kinda hard to do that in IV anyway since most people who talk to you here have a motive. Ex: sex, alcohol, drugs, whatever. I say most for a reason. I have met a few people who are genuinely nice and just want to socialize.

Well, Jake bought me Rhythm Heaven when I was home so I'm going to go play it.
I wanted that game for so long and when I saw it was $5, I was like FUCK YES and then Jake took it and payed for it. He does that with almost everything. Sometimes I don't know what to do with that kid.

Leaopard Print Vests Rule

I gave myself a face mask and a bath earlier.
It felt really nice and my face feels *pure*.
Hehe
Anyway, I really don't feel like I belong here. My roommates are downstairs watching YouTube videos and doing other things I don't do...
I am becoming more serious about moving out next semester. I need to make an appointment with a counselor ASAP. I should have done it sooner, but I never have time. :C Hopefully, I can find time tomorrow...I'm super excited about my career as a Sonographer now. Like, seriously. To be honest, mainly because I will possibly make $65k a year right out of school. That means I can afford going to FIDM. YES. I follow someone on IG that is a fashion student and watching him makes me very excited for my future! I feel I am on the right track again! YUUUUPEEE!

On another note, I am now addicted to Adventure Time. I love it! I knew I should have watched this a long time ago!
This makes me motivated to cheer-up about my adventure. :)

I have a shitty schedule next weekend after Turkey Day, but am going to try and trade. We will see. I just need to stay positive!

Ok. I should really go to bed.

One more thing! My mom "bought" me this awesome vest. :) I bought it because only our Costco has it still, and she said she'd pay be back for an early present. I don't know if I will have her, though. She already claims she will buy me the Spiked Litas for Xmas. But this vest will look bomb with the Spiked Litas. ;)

Watching Adventure Time for the First TIme

And I like it so far. C:
I've had a kinda weird day.
It's been good and bad.

My family was in town and came to visit me while at work; my mom's brother and his girlfriend. She brought her nephew with her that lives in Isla Vista, too.

But that didn't help that I am super homesick. Like, crazy homesick. Crying-under-the-covers-homesick.

I am trying to figure out what to do to make myself happier, because I think I'm extra homesick because I am just unhappy in general. I can't decided if that's just because I'm a baby or if it's because I have too much going on with work 20 hours a week and school full time.
I moved out to be happy, but found myself in the same pattern of work, school, little play.

Whatevers.

Time to enjoy the rest of the show.

FML

Just had a minor curve-ball thrown at me. And I'm listening to the Pandora station labeled "Sleepy Time" because it's calmer music I can listen to while I work. And every fucking song is a love song.

And then "Fall For You" by Secondhand Serenade just came on and I literally just Face-Palmed.

Fuuuuck.


I want to go home so bad. I am so, so, so, homesick.

One of my roommates (*cough* Pat *cough*) took my netbook while I was in the bathroom and posted on my Facebook with "I hate cats that piss on my roommates stuff."
I deleted it in mild anger and no amusement, and posted "My roommates remind me why I'm homesick."
Mel then posted "I miss you, Amanda." And I nearly burst into tears.

When I'm done with this stupid paper, I'm going to take a nice shower and calm down. I'm so emotionally all over the place. Ever since I went home for Jake's birthday, I have been so fucking homesick all over the place. It doesn't help that all the weekends have been a bust with no relief from the school world, but part of me feels like that was inevitable. I don't think I fit in here at all, not even a little. I want to go home to my boring days of Jake's garage and depressive nothingness.

I guess I'm fucked no matter where I am.

My "epic adventure" has turned into an "epic failure."
(should have seen that coming)

It's Been Dayyyyys

Sorry about that. But I'm so busy.
I feel I will be doing a lot more blogging (and hopefully vlogging) because I just bought my first netbook! All on my own!

I'm a

BIG 

GIRL.

I'll probably do a review in a couple weeks on the netbook. So far I'm totally loving it, though. I understand why Jake loves chicklet keys so much now. Totally a great noise and the feel of the keyboard!

I mean, I might be uber poor now, but that's ok! I get paid in a week! Wooh! I don't know if I mentioned it, I believe I did but I started part-time at Michaels Craft Store. It's a lot of fun. A lot of time I just walk around restocking which sucks, but on some days it's really fun. Like last Wednesday I put a bung of (creepy) scarecrows up on the isle sections. It was a simple task and something new. I decorated the store! Wooh!

Isla Vista is been a great adventure for me. It's such a new environment and great experience. I get along with all my roommates swimmingly. We go out at least once every weekend and it's so much fun. Even for me who doesn't drink or smoke. I get to go dancing and go crazy. So great. That's all I want to do is dance!

I miss Jake even crazier, though. :c We have been keeping great contact and I am visiting him the 11-14th for his bdaay weekend. I am making him a very special gift, but will not disclose the information right now due to his random viewing of this blog. But I am really proud of my idea. And my idea for his xmas gift is awesome! It is going to be a real bitch, but worth the effort if I can manage it! Wooh again!

I wish I had more to talk about. Japanese class is great, I'm really enjoying it. I've also been getting really 'expressive' with my fashion. Haha. I have defiantly weirded out a few people. The last week I have been pretty lazy, though. Just haven't really felt it.

My roommates have also declared me 'Mom.' And treat me as so. But as the designated babysitter it's only natural. 

Ok, this is going no where now. My housemates are too distracting. :)

YES YOU ARE.

<3

The Adventure: Night #3

I might eventually edit this post. I'm on my phone because we don't have Internet yet.

This is my third official night of The Adventure. Stella and I arrived here last Sunday night around 9pm. Stella barked at me a little bit and didn't eat/drink/use the litter box on the way down, but she slept and smiled so i knew she was ok. :) Her cage took up 2/3 of the cab in the truck!
That night, I stayed up for a little bit and hung out with the guys, but passed out pretty early. I was physically and emotionally exhausted.

I had to say my (temporary) good bye to Jake and it was so hard. My face was on over-drive so I was a slobbery mess. Not surprisingly, Jake kept his composure and still has. He is always the super strong one. I know he misses me, though. He calls me every day and we even talked for 35 minutes. :) I thought I would have to pry the phone calls out if him but he's been calling me and it's nice.

I met L for the first time. We (I, really) lucked out in picking him kinda blindly. He's very nice and even made us chow mien!
The guys threw a little party last night. Still learning the lingo since I am a huge stranger to all of this, but it might have been considered a 'kickback'. There were a decent amount of people, all the girls got really drunk. I was scared they were going to puke in our bathrooms. After I used our bathroom upstairs, I left the light and vent going so it appeared occupied. I DON'T want to clean up some random's vomit (yet).

I will admit I felt crazy outta place, but after a little bit of just watching them, I felt better. I was still the weird girl with tea instead of alcohol, but I'm sorta proud of that. Don't get me wrong, I've tried it and I'm not sitting there judging them all or anything. I just don't drink but enjoy crowds and loud music.
I also already know I will be a weird girl in IV. I haven't yet (too hot and lazy during the day) worn lolita or the necomimi (need batteries) but as soon as I do I know I'm starting a reputation for myself. I don't mind the idea of that, though.

They should be good for now. Kinda a lame night, but I did just play L4D2 with Al on the Xbox. It was something familiar so I felt less sad about missing Jake. I went on a walk and watched the ocean for a few earlier tonight. Thought it might help me since I was in a bit of a funk, but not really.

Good Night~

Ps: I also miss my soulmate. I didn't get to see her before I left. :(