18 Days

'Till what, you ask?

I GO HOME!!!

I quit my job at Michaels. :C I love it there and hate that I had to, but I need to go home this winter holiday.
The semester is almost over and I am ready for it to be done. I defiantly took on too much with a job along side 15 units (12 being full time student).
My last day of work is the 5th of next month; in one week.

Turkey Day was nice, but not what I am use to. That is not a bad thing at all, I just missed my mom's side of the family. It was a  small, simple Thanksgiving Day.

I have been feeling sick-ish the last few days, like I'm fighting something off. I don't have full-blown symptoms, but they are there and persistent. I actually feel pretty crappy right now. I feel just barely light headed and have a weird feeling in the back of my throat. It's like when you eat a lot of oranges or tangy fruit. I've been going crazy with the Vitamin-C, too.

Should have taken a nap earlier. Oh well.

Time to actually pay attention in history class.

byebye

You're the Best, Bear.

Jake gave me an early holiday present because he was worried I owned it already.

He knows me so well. I don't know why, but I don't expect people to remember most of the stupid/things I say but he does. What he got me was a Betsey Johnson "Heaven's To Betsey" necklace. :)

I am in total love. He got it off eBay, but I think he paid closer to regular price so I'm sure it's real! He got it because it matches my blue, purple and gold BTSSB Gabriel lolita dress. I feel sooo, soo lucky!

I was at his Oma's for Turkey Day and they tease him about being a grump-butt and bossy and he even jokes that he's 'my one flaw.' YEAH. OK. But I know he's not. *incoming cheese* He completes me.

lololloloololololklojfhdofjbko;fjkd;cnl;kv

Ok, more pictures.

I am bananas over this necklace.

Leaopard Print Vests Rule

I gave myself a face mask and a bath earlier.
It felt really nice and my face feels *pure*.
Hehe
Anyway, I really don't feel like I belong here. My roommates are downstairs watching YouTube videos and doing other things I don't do...
I am becoming more serious about moving out next semester. I need to make an appointment with a counselor ASAP. I should have done it sooner, but I never have time. :C Hopefully, I can find time tomorrow...I'm super excited about my career as a Sonographer now. Like, seriously. To be honest, mainly because I will possibly make $65k a year right out of school. That means I can afford going to FIDM. YES. I follow someone on IG that is a fashion student and watching him makes me very excited for my future! I feel I am on the right track again! YUUUUPEEE!

On another note, I am now addicted to Adventure Time. I love it! I knew I should have watched this a long time ago!
This makes me motivated to cheer-up about my adventure. :)

I have a shitty schedule next weekend after Turkey Day, but am going to try and trade. We will see. I just need to stay positive!

Ok. I should really go to bed.

One more thing! My mom "bought" me this awesome vest. :) I bought it because only our Costco has it still, and she said she'd pay be back for an early present. I don't know if I will have her, though. She already claims she will buy me the Spiked Litas for Xmas. But this vest will look bomb with the Spiked Litas. ;)

Watching Adventure Time for the First TIme

And I like it so far. C:
I've had a kinda weird day.
It's been good and bad.

My family was in town and came to visit me while at work; my mom's brother and his girlfriend. She brought her nephew with her that lives in Isla Vista, too.

But that didn't help that I am super homesick. Like, crazy homesick. Crying-under-the-covers-homesick.

I am trying to figure out what to do to make myself happier, because I think I'm extra homesick because I am just unhappy in general. I can't decided if that's just because I'm a baby or if it's because I have too much going on with work 20 hours a week and school full time.
I moved out to be happy, but found myself in the same pattern of work, school, little play.

Whatevers.

Time to enjoy the rest of the show.

What Have I Done with My Past 2.5 Days?

Well...I've

• written an four essay/papers

1. research which I completed 80% in one night,
2. BS PE beach volleyball one
3. Cultural Paper based off the book A Long Way Gone
4. History paper that is part 2 and a take-home segment of our second midterm

• voted

• rolled my ankle which is normally a NBD situation but not this time,

• eaten all my good food,

• managed to make it to Japanese even though 2/4 of the papers tried to stop me,

• gone to work,

• caught up on all homework but Japanese

• and have managed to sleep every night for at least eight hours. :)

Rock Star status? Nahh, but I'll pretend.~

Now only if this weekend I didn't have so much to do sill...and it's only Tuesday. D<

FML

Just had a minor curve-ball thrown at me. And I'm listening to the Pandora station labeled "Sleepy Time" because it's calmer music I can listen to while I work. And every fucking song is a love song.

And then "Fall For You" by Secondhand Serenade just came on and I literally just Face-Palmed.

Fuuuuck.


I want to go home so bad. I am so, so, so, homesick.

One of my roommates (*cough* Pat *cough*) took my netbook while I was in the bathroom and posted on my Facebook with "I hate cats that piss on my roommates stuff."
I deleted it in mild anger and no amusement, and posted "My roommates remind me why I'm homesick."
Mel then posted "I miss you, Amanda." And I nearly burst into tears.

When I'm done with this stupid paper, I'm going to take a nice shower and calm down. I'm so emotionally all over the place. Ever since I went home for Jake's birthday, I have been so fucking homesick all over the place. It doesn't help that all the weekends have been a bust with no relief from the school world, but part of me feels like that was inevitable. I don't think I fit in here at all, not even a little. I want to go home to my boring days of Jake's garage and depressive nothingness.

I guess I'm fucked no matter where I am.

My "epic adventure" has turned into an "epic failure."
(should have seen that coming)

My Life is Finally Starting to Calm Down

I just finished doing some community service and was glad I got that done. I also have only one more roommate to find! Yay!
BUT, the biggest thing is I'm moving in nine days.

NINE.

DAYS.

GAHH!!
MY LIFE IS ABOUT TO BEGIN!

I'm going to miss my boy so much.
Seriously, I spend all my free time with him now. Stella is getting mad because mama is never home. :c But she's coming with me to SB so she'll have me to herself anyway. c:

My friends agreed to have a going away party with me that didn't involve computers so I'm excited for that event. :) Jake also said he's help me move some stuff down which is super sweet of him because I can tell he is super sad I'm moving and hates the 6 hour drive. But I think we'll sneak some time in there to visit his grandma in SLO. She'd really like that. We would too; I really like (most of) his family.:D
And SLO is only about an hour and forty-five minutes away so we can make that the "go to" destination if Jake ever visits because he hates drunk kids (can you blame him? lol) and would very much dislike staying in IV. That and Sarah and him don't get along very well so sharing the room with him would put her off, too. Even though she's such a sweetheart and would never tell me that. Such a good sister. :)

My Auntie Mel also had the brilliant idea to write a book (for at least myself) on moving out and my experiences with the house mates and such. So that is what I'm going to dedicate a large portion of my blog to! I think that would be super cool to have my own book with my experiences to share with my family in the future (if Jake would hurry up and pop the question...HAHA LOVE YOU HONEY <3).

N E WAYS.
That should be all. Hopefully with the free time I will update more frequently.
But if anyone cares, I have been good about my Youtube channel. :) youtube.com/twunks

Bye for now!~

GUIEZ

TODAY WAS PRETTY SHITTY.

BUT WE HAVE A PLACE TO LIVE!

On the 14th, we get the keys to our new place! We are so excited!!
Sarah and I get a bigger room then everyone else, but it's still a really good price because the landlord is letting us have 7 people instead of 6. I'm really worried because I don't have experience the rooms are going to be too small for those in the doubles. But I think we should be just fine. Thinking about room sizes from what we have seen, it should be fine. But my visual memory of the room sizes is making me nervy. @m@

The place is huge! And we have two yards. :D I'm going to hopefully move in by the first of August! I want to get a yob and be settled. :) I even got Stella a harness for adventures.

And Sarah and I got axolotls! AKA, IRL MUDKIPS! DEY ARE SOO CUTE.
Moar on them later, though. They don't even have names yet. c:

So that is all for now. I'm pretty emotionally and physically tired from all the searching and have to go home soon (at Hames').

The reason today was so shitty was because I locked my keys into my truck here at Hames', and Jake was an ass and said he wouldn't take me home because I've locked them in "a lot." I know it happens, but just because he hasn't done it yet, doesn't mean I've done it a lot. I'm only an imperfect human and he was really mean. I'm still mad at him but was able to calm down by watching MichaleJames videos on YouTube. :)

I am SO Stressed Out

My chin is breaking out, it's so bad.
It's not Sarah's fault per say, but she piled so much on her plate that I was left in charge of getting our place secured in SB and finding roommates. Granted, it is her first full time job, but she is doing too much for herself again, the poor girl. She literally has no free time.

The reason it is so stressful for me to do all this is because my dad can be such an A-hole so Sarah's dad doesn't want to talk to him anymore because my dad just flies off the handle at everything. Only a select few of my friends can see past his horse shit facade. And on top of that, Sarah's phone is garbage and doesn't get signal at her house so it's impossible to get a hold of her because I don't have her mom's home number either! I kept asking her to text it to me, but she is so busy I can understand how it would slip her mind.

On the plus side, we both managed to meet a local guy who wanted the single room. We gave it to him because he seemed like a good match. There is a girl I am going to interview in about thirty minutes now. We had been texting for almost a week. I was really excited about meeting her (over Skype) but a couple days ago she dropped a huge bomb on me and said:

"Oh, by the way. I have a severe macaw. If I can't bring him, it's a deal breaker."
DJKLFJSLSDKLFSDLJFJKSDJKFLDSLJK
EXCUSE ME?! YOU MENTION THIS 4 DAYS LATER?!

I almost don't want to interview her anymore, but will anyway. I'm kinda worried because the more I talked to her, the more I got to understand her a little and she seems less like a fit. Though this is all difficult to tell because it's only over text. But even if she works out, she said she doesn't want to live with boys, and Alex is now in the single! And the whole bird thing, I don't imagine there will be a way to find a roommate who will want to live with her and her bird in the double. :o

I don't know what I'll get outta this, but I hope it's something. :S

So What's New?

My soulmate said I needed to blog.
And it's true. I knew that I was being lazy but just ignored my 'responsibility' to blog.
Meh.
But kinda a big thing happened. Well, a big thing for sure.
I finally quite my job at Target. Fucking hatted it there. I'm sad to go because I'm going to miss (most) of my coworkers, but, like I told my "boss," I don't want to work in an environment that makes me unhappy. And everyday I think "What will go wrong today?"
She just looked at me like "OH. Well, I didn't expect this." She tried to make excuses but I shot her down, telling her that the problem was with the upper management, and not you 'little world' as she put it.
Now I know why they never cared, they saw us in our own 'little world' in our Starbucks kiosk.
But whatever. I'm happy to leave overall. I don't have a job set up now, but a couple options are presented. For now, I just want to go to FanimeCon and be happy for awhile. I'm so stressed with so much in my life, I need time to just step back and figure it all out. Going from not having a real job to full time work really did me in.

Fanime is the best thing that happens for all of us. It makes us all feel like we really are 15 again, but with no parents. We get to 'run around' unattended, following our own rules for 3 1/2 days. It's magical. I feel like me again. Stupidly, none of us have booked a hotel room, but I think we will manage. My magical future predicting skills say so. I already bought my ticket, which means that I'll probably have to stand in a long ass annoying line, but have a permanent badge and not just a paper one.
I think I will wear only lolita to Fanime. Last year I was too much of a girl and brought too much to wear, but this year I think I'll bring my dresses and then maybe one change of clothes because I don't want to get too hot.
And I found my camera charger (more like whomever 'borrowed' it returned it. It was just sitting on my desk the other day. Came from NOWHERE.).

Forever 21 might be hiring at the end of May so when I get back from Fanime, I'm going to turn in an application. But by then I will have purple in my hair so I'm going to have to buy a wig...I think I'll just keep it a secret because I really don't like that I can't have colors in my hair. It's important to me to express myself. Having wild hair, piercings and hopefully my wing tattoos all help me paint my canvas. I think I'll try seeing if Hot Topic is hiring, even though I haven't shopped there since I was 16. But I still love lots of their accessories.

But yeah, I bought purple dye today. Not my normal brand because the website is STILL OUT OF IT. It's been at least a month. I'm really pissed. But this other brand I've used before and it didn't seem bad so I'm giving it a shot. It's cheater and I got it at Sally's instead of ordering online. Tomorrow, I'm going to finally do my roots and then add the purple for the last day of work. I'm being rebelious because they started to get cranky about my blondish/black hair. Our "boss" was asking Shanter (she left too! I miss her already. :c I was looking through old pictures and saw the pumpkin carving ones. But that's when Stella almost...) if my hair was acceptable.
Shanta (being a *bux employee for 4 years total): "Well, all I know is that it has to be natural colors to someone."
'Boss': "Yeahhhhhhhhhhhhh. But it's two different colors!"

Fuck you. You're a stupid bitch. I'm a TARGET EMPLOYEE. So therefor, the I can do WHAT I WANT. I was told so when I was hired. And I don't care if I'm in the *bux kiosk being told to look 'Starbucks Brand.' If you want us to follow *bux rules, then make us *bux employees. Bitch. So my purple hair on my last day is me saying "GO FUCK YOURSELF."
And I've been wearing just a hairnet like a lunch lady lately because it was so freakin' hot during frappy crappy hour, and the hat kept falling in my eyes. Two leaders that KNOW NOTHING ABOUT OUR KIOSK came over and asked "Shouldn't you be wearing a hat?!"
"No. It's a hat or hairnet."
"Well, I think it's suppose to be both."
"No, we were told either or."
"Well, let me go check with Waldo."
I just gave a puzzled expression. WALDO? He doesn't know anything about our department! All he does is sign the cleaning log every night! SHUT UP AND GO DEAL WITH YOUR DEPARTMENT. FUCKERS.

On a happier note, I started reading The Hunger Games and fell in love. I hate that there is so much hype about it, and I haven't seem the movie yet but don't really like who they picked for Katniss yet. And I think Katniss is being annoying about Peeta. I think she loves him, but is just being a stupid girl.
I broke my record and read the book in 2-3 days. Jake gave me his old, crappy eReader but I'm happy with it. I'm now on the second book.

Ok, I think that's everything 'important.'

6 am Start

Was woken up at 6 by Target because the opener called out. I asked Stella if I should say I can come in early and she said yes.
So now I'm exhausted.
Working on a day that there is a call out is so difficult. It's a battle. The LOD's hardly give two shits, let alone one, so you're left trying to float on your own. Thankfully, today was better than some.
I got off at 3:30 and feel pretty tired. Going to try and take a nap and then play some WoW with Jakeums. :)

Jake's dad had gotten Panda earlier and I've been craving it so I lucked out with that one. Jake is mowing the lawn but his dad is out there too so it would be weird for me to just sit out there and watch him. I love watching him work. ;) Especially since it's warm out and he will probably end up taking off his shirt.
<3 <3 <3 <3 :-)))))))))))))

Stella misses my soulmate, too. <3

Not Meaning to Sound like a Spoiled Brat,

But I reaaaaallly love my iPhone. LYKE, A LOT.
It's so handy and simple. I had an Android at one point, but just am an iPhone person. Maybe it's because my Droid was glitchy. As much as I love the complete customizability of a Droid, I love the simpleness of an iPhone. That includes its simple looks. :)

FINALLY.

I've been CRAVING this since yesterday! It tastes soooo good. -3-

Iced chai with half nonfat milk and half soy. In weird, I know. But I wanted to try it like that because I need the nonfat (because I have too many of theses!) but still wants the vanilla soy flavor.
I feel it was a success. :)

Jean Paul Gaultier Exhibit

First off, sorry about the quality. I can't find my charget for my Nikon so iPhone photo's is what it is.

These are from the Gaultier Exhibit at the de Young in San Francisco; my favorite park in SF. It's in the same park as the Japanese Tea Gardens. Me, pretending that I'm going to be majoring in fashion LOVED THIS. I LOVED how unique and fearless he is! Granted, most of the outfits I was not crazy about, but I loved his ambitions and how he made what he saw fit and not what society wanted and such. And he has said a lot of amazing quotes. I'm going to put a bunch of them on my dream board/wall.

And that night I dressed up in a strapless, fitted white dress with tall zebra print heels, hot pink lace socks, a drop necklace (down the back) and a braclet - both gold and I made! - with a smal black sweater for warmth. :) Because my mom can be so critical about my outfits, the whole time I was getting ready all I could think about was how to explain to her everything I knew she would find wrong in the outfit. I eventually wasn't happy with myself anymore. Even though I dyed my hair pink.

But when we got there, boy, I hate to be self centered, but I got a few looks. I don't normally get any attention like that so I am going to be a bitch and brag about it. If you don't like it, then just skip reading this part. But the only other thing I wanted to say was there were people photographing the whole thing and a couple people took my photos and also this kid who didn't look old enough to be out of high school wouldn't leave me a long for a bit. I mean, I'm flattered he wanted to hit on me, but I'm happily taken and he couldn't take a hit. I knew I should have worn the ring I bought myself. It usually works. I feel really bad becasue I had to resort to pretty much ignoring him. Oh well, I hope he doesn't hate me too much.

I think my punishmet for that was my feet were killing me. I literally couldn't feel all of my toes for 2 days. They were numb like when you sleep on your arm wrong. But all is better now, thankfully. I've never worn heels for so long. But I loved every second of it!

I hope if the show is near you, you get a chance to see it. It really was quite awesome and inspiring.

 ^ Personal favorite :)

^LOVE this skirt~!

^Not really a sweater dress person, but this is just BEAUTIFUL

^Wanted to show Marin

^AHAHAH Love this~!

^So many great quotes

^My new inspiration~

^ What I wore :)

You can't really tell, but the bun on my head was in the shape of a bow. :))))

^The Necklace I made. I was SO proud of myself.



So This Was Marin's Idea

To do a 'things I love' post. "Instant happiness" she says.

Things I Love:
Marin
Jake
Stella
My Phone
Nomca (car)
Sarah
Family
Starbucks Drinks
Lolita!!!!!!!
Not being broke
Skyrim
My PS3
My banana sticker on my PS3
The xBox and conroller Jake gave me (lime green!)
Food
Crafts
Sewing
Helping People
Making people laugh
tumblr
Pinterest
Lolita (book)
Fashion in general
Making meals, but only if it's for someone else
Surprises; giving and getting ones
Laughing
Some of my memories
More Starbucks
Music
Dancing
Day Dreaming
Sewing Machine
The smell of rain on concrete
The smell of Jake's clothing
Non-natural colors in my hair
Adventures
Dragonball/Z
Reading
Manga
Drawing
Photography
Hot summer nights
Toburt
Honey Kat
Okipuss
Shopping
San Francisco
When my boyfriend comes back after an argument <3
Marucci's
Chipotle
BBQ Bacon Burgers
Salt and Vinigar Kettle Chips
Coupons
My job (mostly making drinks. and then drinking them)
The anticipation of shopping for new Lolita
Singing
Singing in my car, alone but with the window's down so others have to suffer, too.
Rain
The Sims
Interior design
More food
Google
Youtube
Ranting
Thrifting
Halloween
Candy
Kisses
Tattoos
Piercings
My internet name; twunks
Marin's cooking/baking
Bread
Cheese
Costco
Rings
Jewelry
Craigslist's Free section
Having an excuse to get dressed up
Shoes
Being apart of the 'inside' jokes

And myself, just a bit.

Hopes Hopes Hopes Hopes Hopes

Hopefully going thrifting tomorrow!
I'm even doing my herr right now. Randomly saw a video tutorial on boho curls and my hair was still damp so I figured "why not?"
I'm going to stash my skirt in my car for after work. THRIFT.
I am CRAVING thrift shopping right now!

We so accided! We so ACCIDED.

Today Was Simple

Just how I like it.
Unfortunutly, I didn't get around to thrifting as I hoped and must wait until Monday. But that is fine since Down Town was a fucking ZOO. I haven't had a social life in forever so I forgot how busy it gets there on the weekends.
Spens had a little LAN last night and it was fun. I only brought my PS3 and monitor but ended up forgetting the headset so I didn't even set it up. That wasn't a problem. I just enjoy hanging out with them. :)

Doing some laundry now and might get the energy to dye my roots - they need it BAD.

I was delighted to find that it doesn't start getting dark until 7:30 now! No more of this "Uh oh, it's 5 and the sun's already down," bullhonkey. My favorite part about summer are the hot summer nights that don't start until about 9 which means shops tend to be open longer! YES.

In other news, I put a collar on Stella with a bell and she keeps thinking she's hearing something playing with her and coming after her. So cute. :))))))