Meowy Christmas!

Hello Tubes!
Hope everyone who celebrates Christmas is having a great day today. And that everyone else's holidays were spectacular, too. :)

It was a simple six part Christmas for me, and I have done up to part three so far. Once with Jake, then my friends, Jake's mum, my mum and her family, my dad and tomorrow Jake's dad. I only asked for a pair of black spiked Litas which I did get. :) I made it very clear to my parents it's all I wished for so with nothing else on the list, it was the major item. I got some beautiful clothes and accessories from my mum from F21 and A'gaci (favorite store). My dad gave me the shoes and my brother a couple more pieces from F21. Jake gave me two ADORIABLE Rilakkuma phone chases and a Domo shirt. :) Zach got me Due Sex (Deus Ex) and it's super fun! I watched Jake play it and decided I wanted to give it a go since I hardly have any FPS.
I did get some more small things from the rest of my gifters, but it seems silly to type it all out. I am so very thankful for all of them and their generosity. <3

Happy Honkidays!

18 Days

'Till what, you ask?

I GO HOME!!!

I quit my job at Michaels. :C I love it there and hate that I had to, but I need to go home this winter holiday.
The semester is almost over and I am ready for it to be done. I defiantly took on too much with a job along side 15 units (12 being full time student).
My last day of work is the 5th of next month; in one week.

Turkey Day was nice, but not what I am use to. That is not a bad thing at all, I just missed my mom's side of the family. It was a  small, simple Thanksgiving Day.

I have been feeling sick-ish the last few days, like I'm fighting something off. I don't have full-blown symptoms, but they are there and persistent. I actually feel pretty crappy right now. I feel just barely light headed and have a weird feeling in the back of my throat. It's like when you eat a lot of oranges or tangy fruit. I've been going crazy with the Vitamin-C, too.

Should have taken a nap earlier. Oh well.

Time to actually pay attention in history class.

byebye

You're the Best, Bear.

Jake gave me an early holiday present because he was worried I owned it already.

He knows me so well. I don't know why, but I don't expect people to remember most of the stupid/things I say but he does. What he got me was a Betsey Johnson "Heaven's To Betsey" necklace. :)

I am in total love. He got it off eBay, but I think he paid closer to regular price so I'm sure it's real! He got it because it matches my blue, purple and gold BTSSB Gabriel lolita dress. I feel sooo, soo lucky!

I was at his Oma's for Turkey Day and they tease him about being a grump-butt and bossy and he even jokes that he's 'my one flaw.' YEAH. OK. But I know he's not. *incoming cheese* He completes me.

lololloloololololklojfhdofjbko;fjkd;cnl;kv

Ok, more pictures.

I am bananas over this necklace.

Leaopard Print Vests Rule

I gave myself a face mask and a bath earlier.
It felt really nice and my face feels *pure*.
Hehe
Anyway, I really don't feel like I belong here. My roommates are downstairs watching YouTube videos and doing other things I don't do...
I am becoming more serious about moving out next semester. I need to make an appointment with a counselor ASAP. I should have done it sooner, but I never have time. :C Hopefully, I can find time tomorrow...I'm super excited about my career as a Sonographer now. Like, seriously. To be honest, mainly because I will possibly make $65k a year right out of school. That means I can afford going to FIDM. YES. I follow someone on IG that is a fashion student and watching him makes me very excited for my future! I feel I am on the right track again! YUUUUPEEE!

On another note, I am now addicted to Adventure Time. I love it! I knew I should have watched this a long time ago!
This makes me motivated to cheer-up about my adventure. :)

I have a shitty schedule next weekend after Turkey Day, but am going to try and trade. We will see. I just need to stay positive!

Ok. I should really go to bed.

One more thing! My mom "bought" me this awesome vest. :) I bought it because only our Costco has it still, and she said she'd pay be back for an early present. I don't know if I will have her, though. She already claims she will buy me the Spiked Litas for Xmas. But this vest will look bomb with the Spiked Litas. ;)

All Cuddled Up

Watching Adventure Time for the First TIme

And I like it so far. C:
I've had a kinda weird day.
It's been good and bad.

My family was in town and came to visit me while at work; my mom's brother and his girlfriend. She brought her nephew with her that lives in Isla Vista, too.

But that didn't help that I am super homesick. Like, crazy homesick. Crying-under-the-covers-homesick.

I am trying to figure out what to do to make myself happier, because I think I'm extra homesick because I am just unhappy in general. I can't decided if that's just because I'm a baby or if it's because I have too much going on with work 20 hours a week and school full time.
I moved out to be happy, but found myself in the same pattern of work, school, little play.

Whatevers.

Time to enjoy the rest of the show.

What Have I Done with My Past 2.5 Days?

Well...I've

• written an four essay/papers

1. research which I completed 80% in one night,
2. BS PE beach volleyball one
3. Cultural Paper based off the book A Long Way Gone
4. History paper that is part 2 and a take-home segment of our second midterm

• voted

• rolled my ankle which is normally a NBD situation but not this time,

• eaten all my good food,

• managed to make it to Japanese even though 2/4 of the papers tried to stop me,

• gone to work,

• caught up on all homework but Japanese

• and have managed to sleep every night for at least eight hours. :)

Rock Star status? Nahh, but I'll pretend.~

Now only if this weekend I didn't have so much to do sill...and it's only Tuesday. D<

FML

Just had a minor curve-ball thrown at me. And I'm listening to the Pandora station labeled "Sleepy Time" because it's calmer music I can listen to while I work. And every fucking song is a love song.

And then "Fall For You" by Secondhand Serenade just came on and I literally just Face-Palmed.

Fuuuuck.


I want to go home so bad. I am so, so, so, homesick.

One of my roommates (*cough* Pat *cough*) took my netbook while I was in the bathroom and posted on my Facebook with "I hate cats that piss on my roommates stuff."
I deleted it in mild anger and no amusement, and posted "My roommates remind me why I'm homesick."
Mel then posted "I miss you, Amanda." And I nearly burst into tears.

When I'm done with this stupid paper, I'm going to take a nice shower and calm down. I'm so emotionally all over the place. Ever since I went home for Jake's birthday, I have been so fucking homesick all over the place. It doesn't help that all the weekends have been a bust with no relief from the school world, but part of me feels like that was inevitable. I don't think I fit in here at all, not even a little. I want to go home to my boring days of Jake's garage and depressive nothingness.

I guess I'm fucked no matter where I am.

My "epic adventure" has turned into an "epic failure."
(should have seen that coming)

She's Helping Me Write My Paper

Someone is Smoking Weed Outside My Window (as usual)

Stella is literally watching me write this blog.
I am laying in bed and she is sitting facing the netbook, watching the words appear on the screen and my fingers moving. As cute as this is, I can only see 5% of the screen and am praying these words are spelled correctly (thank binoculars for spell check).

I am pretty mad at myself for not staying updated. There are a few things that I would have liked to blog about, but haven't. My life feels so different and I don't know if it's good or bad.
I miss Jake like a crazy person. Every day I have this compelling feeling to not get off at the appropriate exit and to keep driving straight for another 6 hours. But I can't.

Work has been getting better. I'm starting to enjoy it and make friends. I just have hardly any free time and because I'm only a part time worker, I'm not getting a lot of money for what feels like a lot of hours. But I'm ok with that. I couldn't handle anymore.

Things I should have blogged about:
Over a month ago my roommates first put up a "boxing ring" in our back yard. Sarah and I boxed. I 'won,' but there were some uneven odds going on.

A week after that I visited Jake for his birthday. It was a glorious weekend. I miss the bay so much. After I visited, that's when the serious sad days started to kick in. It helped me realize the sooner I get my shit together, the sooner I can go back home. As much as I am enjoying my time here down south, it is not home. I don't feel like I'm at home. I don't know how I feel. I use to feel like I was just visiting, but now it just feels normal, but not in a normal way.

I haven't posted any vlogs to YouTube and feel like an idiot. I need to start a weekly thing to get myself rolling. If you are reading this from my channel, I'm sorry. I have been so busy and promise to make time. I wanted to do a giveaway since I have 100+ followers now! Thank you!

I am managing to get through the days knowing I'll see Jake for Turkey Day. But after that? I don't want to think about it. I can't go home for winter break, but am hoping Jake will come down here, especially because IV will be much calmer and the house will be mostly empty.

I miss my mom a lot, too. She sends me amazing care packages even though she can't always afford it. I really want to send her something nice, I just can't think of it yet. I really miss just going to lunch or tea with her whenever. I don't have many friends outside the house, but even if I did, I wouldn't be able to fill the mom emptiness.

For Halloween I was a manba girl. It was a lot of fun doing the makeup, but the actual weekend sucked. It's probably because I don't drink, but I don't think that's all of it. There was a crazy couple that literally brawled each other and kept coming back when we kicked them out. And Saturday just sucked. My Halloween weekend was a total bust, the whole time I just wished I was back in the bay. I was borderline miserable. I didn't complain to anyone about that but one early morning, when I was asked by either Jack or Richard how I was, I mentioned how I was homesick and how Halloween wasn't the same for me. For some reason, Sarah thought it was her fault and threw me a surprise tea party. It was lovely and I really enjoyed it. It's not her fault that I don't fit in here and I don't know why she feels it's her responsibility. I think even if I did drink, I would still be about the same because Jake is what I miss the most.

I feel like I have no purpose in my life right now. It just feels like being stuck in the school rut. I have 3 papers due next week, one Monday and two on Tuesday. I think I can finish them all tomorrow no problem, especially because I have work earlier than normal on the weekends. I hope I get hired on as a regular after the holidays. And continuing on that hope, maybe even transfer to the Michael's back home for the summer. That would be amazing.

I'm forcing myself to draw again. If I want to be a fashion person, I need to be able to at least draw my designs/outfits. I did a couple already and think they turned out alright. I have a scrap book but decided to make it my design portfolio instead as a way to keep myself positive.

The last thing I can think of is that there's a possibility that Jake might go to Japan without me. :C Even though I explained earlier how it was important to me that we both go at the same time for the first time, it didn't stick and his Oma offered to pay for his trip and said I wasn't allowed to go. It's not that she doesn't like me, she just wants him to get an experience of the outside world and that's where he wants to go. I wish he'd pick somewhere else because it is so important to me. It's one of the few things we have in common and he's always saying we don't have a lot, too. But whatever. He hasn't told me his final answer yet and I don't want to think about it anymore.


This holiday, I think I'm going to ask for shoes. I want so many Jeffrey Campbell's that I'm going to pick my favorite and ask for them. So far, the Damsil JC x BlackMilk Galaxy ones are winning. I will probably end up buying myself a pair of spiked Litas in the next couple weeks, probably with the next pay check. I want Lolita, too, but just am too down to ever want to wear it. The longer I am here, the less I want to get dressed up. It's weird.


I think that's enough ranting for now. Good Night, World.

Fuuuuuuuck

Turning in a paper for communications today. Just overheard another student that was asking about an intro. Because it's a paper about ourselves, it doesn't have to follow conventional MLA format. I had this stupid pathetic three sentences for an intro but decided to delete it because it look outta place. Oh well.
That paper took longer than expected anyway. I stayed up until about 1:45 doing it when I thought it would take 45 minutes. Bleh. But 6 hours of sleep is good for me.
   
I also think I'm suppose to have a receipt for the book we are suppose to read.

But that's cool. I just bought it off amazon for $5. B-) It was about $1.50 and then shipping was the bitch. Oh well! I hope it's not in complete garbage condition. Not that I really care, since I would destroy it, too. Mwuahaha. I've been meaning to buy that book since the first day of school so I could get a head start. I always need the extra time but oh well. I might actually enjoy it so I might actually read it!

The girl in front of me is flicking her hair back repeatedly and it's landing on my screen.
I like her less, now.

It is so nice having a comp in class. :) Time for notes!

Getta Load

Firstly, there is a seagull just staring at me because he knows I"m eating delicious Safeway/Vons sourdough bread.

Secondly, I am enjoying watching this kid get rejected.
Now I am not naturally or normally a mean spirited person, but this kid made me one of this 'victims.' He just bitch hops. Last Wednesday, I was sitting alone enjoying the beautiful view from the school

Well, I am too nice of a person and let him bug me for an hour before my next class. I gave him my google number (because there is no way that I would give him my real digits). He said he's text me over the weekend and I was surprised when I didn't hear from him. Well, that is because Google Voice had logged me out and when I logged back in, it showed 4 missed calls from his number.

I saw him again today, wanting to sit in the same spot and enjoy the view. I took a picture and left.
(The seagull is starting to bark at me. Muahhahahaha). I saw he was talking to some other girl trying to enjoy the view. I am sitting on a smaller hill in viewing distance, but not too recognizable because I am not wearing anything "outthere" today. I saw a girl come rescue her friend and when they were gone, he literally just turned around to a girl on the bottom of the hill! Looking over now it appears that she rejected him quick quickly. I don't see him and that makes me nervous .I already decided I'd rip him a new one because I am in a bad mood and do not want to deal with his prying personality any further.
(The seagull has left due to a girl taking it's spot. I win!)

Neadless to say, I am glad he didn't notice me but very frustrated that I can't sit in the same spot anymore. He came off as very creepy and stubborn/assertive/lying. I just happened to be wearing my fake engagement ring that day and even though he saw it, he continued his brand  of flirting. That really agitated me. I might text him from a different number and give him shit for just bitch hopping because that's not ok. Just because you like vagina and we have them, does not give you the right or the OK to come bother us. I live with 6 freakin' people so when I get an hour to myself, I WANT that! Especially if there is the ocean view and warm sun involved.

I must end my rant/story there due to my next class starting. I'm actually excited to sit in a 3 hour lecture because I have been walking around all day at work. I love it, but am very, VERY, excited for my day off tomorrow.

Stay tuned! Because I can actually update regularly now due to this magical netbook! YAAYYYYY.
/pretendingtohaveviewers

I Don't Understand

For the amount of positive effort I put into life, it doesn't seem like I'm getting nearly half of it back.

I'm either blind or maybe it's stockpiling up for something great.

Like the ability to breathe underwater or fly.


I'm waiting, Universe.

It's Been Dayyyyys

Sorry about that. But I'm so busy.
I feel I will be doing a lot more blogging (and hopefully vlogging) because I just bought my first netbook! All on my own!

I'm a

BIG 

GIRL.

I'll probably do a review in a couple weeks on the netbook. So far I'm totally loving it, though. I understand why Jake loves chicklet keys so much now. Totally a great noise and the feel of the keyboard!

I mean, I might be uber poor now, but that's ok! I get paid in a week! Wooh! I don't know if I mentioned it, I believe I did but I started part-time at Michaels Craft Store. It's a lot of fun. A lot of time I just walk around restocking which sucks, but on some days it's really fun. Like last Wednesday I put a bung of (creepy) scarecrows up on the isle sections. It was a simple task and something new. I decorated the store! Wooh!

Isla Vista is been a great adventure for me. It's such a new environment and great experience. I get along with all my roommates swimmingly. We go out at least once every weekend and it's so much fun. Even for me who doesn't drink or smoke. I get to go dancing and go crazy. So great. That's all I want to do is dance!

I miss Jake even crazier, though. :c We have been keeping great contact and I am visiting him the 11-14th for his bdaay weekend. I am making him a very special gift, but will not disclose the information right now due to his random viewing of this blog. But I am really proud of my idea. And my idea for his xmas gift is awesome! It is going to be a real bitch, but worth the effort if I can manage it! Wooh again!

I wish I had more to talk about. Japanese class is great, I'm really enjoying it. I've also been getting really 'expressive' with my fashion. Haha. I have defiantly weirded out a few people. The last week I have been pretty lazy, though. Just haven't really felt it.

My roommates have also declared me 'Mom.' And treat me as so. But as the designated babysitter it's only natural. 

Ok, this is going no where now. My housemates are too distracting. :)

YES YOU ARE.

<3

I'm Hiding

I'm taking a personal "bathroom" break right now. I haven't updated in almost a month, but I have a job at Michaels now. It's seasonal, but if they like me I can stay.

I know ladies week is approaching fast. I'm already fighting off a cold and am bloated to no end. Also, I got a sudden very strong wave of 'holy shit I miss Jake' emotions. I always miss him, but this is PMS trying to make my life hell.

I am very tired and just with to cuddle up in the soft, noisy sheets of Jake's bed. It's always very cool and the sound of the fan above is familiar and comforting. I am going home for the weekend in a little under a month for his birthday. I don't want to wait that long. It's been almost 3 weeks since he visited and that makes me very, very sad. I'm having a great time in SB. I really do feel like I'm finding myself here on my own. It's also helping me put my priorities in order.

Being surrounded by crafts at work makes thing very pleasant. I have so many ideas for what I want to do. So many gifts I want to send home.

Ok. Hopefully I'll update more later. Time to get back on my sour feet and make that money!

300 Ab Challenge - Day 2

I'm damn sore from yesterday so I went easy on myself today. After I did the first couple sets I was stretched out enough that the pain was doable to finish. But I still babied myself. My legs are really sore too, which surprised me at first. I'm not looking forward to tomorrow. But I read another person's experience was after the 4th day, the soreness didn't effect them nearly as bad. I hope that's the same with me. I think I made the pain stronger by jogging/running yesterday. Might try again tomorrow, but will probably end up just walking.

Well I'm tired.
Night XoxoxoX

Lolita in Goleta #1

So first things first, Goleta is pronounced go-leet-uh. Now the total sounds way cooler.

Today was the first day I wore lolita here in SB/Goleta (Goleta is about 10 miles north of SB). I only went half lolie (see image below) today. The main reasons for that are 1.) It's warm out and 2.) I didn't want to freak out the house mates.

I did a lot today; went to SBCC (unsuccessful), Albersons, Von's, Costco, Home Depot, Ross (got new running tennies) and a smoke shop (for JD). The cashier at Albersons said he liked my outfit and would have given me a piece of candy if he had any but have us the store discount instead since neither of us have Albersons cards.

Side note: Stella is so fucking hyper and rambunctious right now it's driving me bonkers.

I also started the 30 Day/300 challenge to start shaping my abs. I feel a bit site and jogging for 10 minutes didn't help. But I need to get some athleticism back. I didn't appreciate how fit I was when I played basketball because I thought that was just normal for me since I played for 8 years solid. But now that I can't even run a fucking block, I feel so pathetic. Jake started rising his bike, too. It's nice we are both taking care of ourselves. I decided to make walking/jogging/running my drinking. If I feel like I really 'want' to drink, I will go on a walk/jog/run instead. Healthier for my body and relationship. :)

Played more (sober) beer pong. Won both games I played (I think). I'm starting to understand why people enjoy it do much. I have an advantage because I stay sober the whole time, but I suck so it balances out. After that we played Blur and then L4D2. I didn't really feel like it though since A was sufficiently drunk and easy mode was difficult (manages to finish the ending on my own, though). We watched Dazed and Confused. It was a good 70's movie. Lots of actors that later become famous.

My Jeffrey Campbell shoes should arrive in the next two days. I'm so excited! I've wanted them for a while and feel it was a good purchase. :)

That's all for today. I miss my YouTube channel. :( Need to vlog soon.

Also miss Jake like crazy. A played Less than Jake in the car and it stung (he didn't know).

Stella is all tuckered out now and so am I.

Night.
XoxoX

The Adventure: Night #3

I might eventually edit this post. I'm on my phone because we don't have Internet yet.

This is my third official night of The Adventure. Stella and I arrived here last Sunday night around 9pm. Stella barked at me a little bit and didn't eat/drink/use the litter box on the way down, but she slept and smiled so i knew she was ok. :) Her cage took up 2/3 of the cab in the truck!
That night, I stayed up for a little bit and hung out with the guys, but passed out pretty early. I was physically and emotionally exhausted.

I had to say my (temporary) good bye to Jake and it was so hard. My face was on over-drive so I was a slobbery mess. Not surprisingly, Jake kept his composure and still has. He is always the super strong one. I know he misses me, though. He calls me every day and we even talked for 35 minutes. :) I thought I would have to pry the phone calls out if him but he's been calling me and it's nice.

I met L for the first time. We (I, really) lucked out in picking him kinda blindly. He's very nice and even made us chow mien!
The guys threw a little party last night. Still learning the lingo since I am a huge stranger to all of this, but it might have been considered a 'kickback'. There were a decent amount of people, all the girls got really drunk. I was scared they were going to puke in our bathrooms. After I used our bathroom upstairs, I left the light and vent going so it appeared occupied. I DON'T want to clean up some random's vomit (yet).

I will admit I felt crazy outta place, but after a little bit of just watching them, I felt better. I was still the weird girl with tea instead of alcohol, but I'm sorta proud of that. Don't get me wrong, I've tried it and I'm not sitting there judging them all or anything. I just don't drink but enjoy crowds and loud music.
I also already know I will be a weird girl in IV. I haven't yet (too hot and lazy during the day) worn lolita or the necomimi (need batteries) but as soon as I do I know I'm starting a reputation for myself. I don't mind the idea of that, though.

They should be good for now. Kinda a lame night, but I did just play L4D2 with Al on the Xbox. It was something familiar so I felt less sad about missing Jake. I went on a walk and watched the ocean for a few earlier tonight. Thought it might help me since I was in a bit of a funk, but not really.

Good Night~

Ps: I also miss my soulmate. I didn't get to see her before I left. :(

Bucket List

I'm going to (hopefully) add to this as I go.

Here is a list of how I want my future to go/turn out:

1. Move (going to Santa Barbara in T-5 days!)
2. Live in San Francisco for at least 1 year
3. Own 100 pairs of heels: 8/100 (get a closet like Big made for Cary in the Sex and the City movie)
4. Buy a pair of shoes costing at least $700
5. Own at least 50 lolita dresses (not necessarily at the same time)
6. Get engaged to Jake :3
7. Marry Jake <:3 (he'd be so mad/embarrassed if he saw these >:3)
8. Wear a beautiful white uchikake/kimono as a wedding dress - with purple accent to match my hair
9. Keep my hair purple/some color for as long as I want.
10. Design and make at least one line of clothing (for myself or others)
11. Make a 80% of a Thanksgiving dinner (turkey must be included or does not count)
12. Buy a house with Jake and Stella :)
13. Have at least $10,000 in my savings account by the time I'm 27
14. Wear Necomimi in at least 3 different countries/continents outdoors
15. Travel to at least 5 different places on the planet (previous destinations & Japan don't count - see 16)
16. Live in Japan for at least 1 year, with Jake
17. Become certified as a sonographer
18. Work as a GoGo dance (no stripping)
19. Get to 100 vidoes on YouTube
20. Get vampire teeth/dentures
21. Have a kid/kids (with said Future Husband)
22. Get a degree in something I want to/love to do (hopefully before the age of 30)
23. Learn to knit (HEY MARIN)
24. Try modeling
25. Get my wings tattoo on my back and the "I Love You :3" on my fingers
26. Open my Etsy shop and get it going
27. Be and inspiration/mentor to someone
28. Be healthy and maintain a healthy weight&&lifestyle for ME 
29. Own enough books to have a mini library or 4 full bookcases with 5 levels each
30. CLEAR SKYRIM FULLY AT LEAST ONCE
31. If I become a wardrobe coordinator for video games/animation, work for Pixar
32. Work at Baby, the Stars Shine Bright or Angelic Pretty for at least one summer
33. Get my lip & septum re-pierced + double tragus on my left ear
34. Work at a job I love and get paid enough to support myself
35. Live a full/happy life (by my standards)

That was really fun. :)

My Life is Finally Starting to Calm Down

I just finished doing some community service and was glad I got that done. I also have only one more roommate to find! Yay!
BUT, the biggest thing is I'm moving in nine days.

NINE.

DAYS.

GAHH!!
MY LIFE IS ABOUT TO BEGIN!

I'm going to miss my boy so much.
Seriously, I spend all my free time with him now. Stella is getting mad because mama is never home. :c But she's coming with me to SB so she'll have me to herself anyway. c:

My friends agreed to have a going away party with me that didn't involve computers so I'm excited for that event. :) Jake also said he's help me move some stuff down which is super sweet of him because I can tell he is super sad I'm moving and hates the 6 hour drive. But I think we'll sneak some time in there to visit his grandma in SLO. She'd really like that. We would too; I really like (most of) his family.:D
And SLO is only about an hour and forty-five minutes away so we can make that the "go to" destination if Jake ever visits because he hates drunk kids (can you blame him? lol) and would very much dislike staying in IV. That and Sarah and him don't get along very well so sharing the room with him would put her off, too. Even though she's such a sweetheart and would never tell me that. Such a good sister. :)

My Auntie Mel also had the brilliant idea to write a book (for at least myself) on moving out and my experiences with the house mates and such. So that is what I'm going to dedicate a large portion of my blog to! I think that would be super cool to have my own book with my experiences to share with my family in the future (if Jake would hurry up and pop the question...HAHA LOVE YOU HONEY <3).

N E WAYS.
That should be all. Hopefully with the free time I will update more frequently.
But if anyone cares, I have been good about my Youtube channel. :) youtube.com/twunks

Bye for now!~

GUIEZ

TODAY WAS PRETTY SHITTY.

BUT WE HAVE A PLACE TO LIVE!

On the 14th, we get the keys to our new place! We are so excited!!
Sarah and I get a bigger room then everyone else, but it's still a really good price because the landlord is letting us have 7 people instead of 6. I'm really worried because I don't have experience the rooms are going to be too small for those in the doubles. But I think we should be just fine. Thinking about room sizes from what we have seen, it should be fine. But my visual memory of the room sizes is making me nervy. @m@

The place is huge! And we have two yards. :D I'm going to hopefully move in by the first of August! I want to get a yob and be settled. :) I even got Stella a harness for adventures.

And Sarah and I got axolotls! AKA, IRL MUDKIPS! DEY ARE SOO CUTE.
Moar on them later, though. They don't even have names yet. c:

So that is all for now. I'm pretty emotionally and physically tired from all the searching and have to go home soon (at Hames').

The reason today was so shitty was because I locked my keys into my truck here at Hames', and Jake was an ass and said he wouldn't take me home because I've locked them in "a lot." I know it happens, but just because he hasn't done it yet, doesn't mean I've done it a lot. I'm only an imperfect human and he was really mean. I'm still mad at him but was able to calm down by watching MichaleJames videos on YouTube. :)

I am SO Stressed Out

My chin is breaking out, it's so bad.
It's not Sarah's fault per say, but she piled so much on her plate that I was left in charge of getting our place secured in SB and finding roommates. Granted, it is her first full time job, but she is doing too much for herself again, the poor girl. She literally has no free time.

The reason it is so stressful for me to do all this is because my dad can be such an A-hole so Sarah's dad doesn't want to talk to him anymore because my dad just flies off the handle at everything. Only a select few of my friends can see past his horse shit facade. And on top of that, Sarah's phone is garbage and doesn't get signal at her house so it's impossible to get a hold of her because I don't have her mom's home number either! I kept asking her to text it to me, but she is so busy I can understand how it would slip her mind.

On the plus side, we both managed to meet a local guy who wanted the single room. We gave it to him because he seemed like a good match. There is a girl I am going to interview in about thirty minutes now. We had been texting for almost a week. I was really excited about meeting her (over Skype) but a couple days ago she dropped a huge bomb on me and said:

"Oh, by the way. I have a severe macaw. If I can't bring him, it's a deal breaker."
DJKLFJSLSDKLFSDLJFJKSDJKFLDSLJK
EXCUSE ME?! YOU MENTION THIS 4 DAYS LATER?!

I almost don't want to interview her anymore, but will anyway. I'm kinda worried because the more I talked to her, the more I got to understand her a little and she seems less like a fit. Though this is all difficult to tell because it's only over text. But even if she works out, she said she doesn't want to live with boys, and Alex is now in the single! And the whole bird thing, I don't imagine there will be a way to find a roommate who will want to live with her and her bird in the double. :o

I don't know what I'll get outta this, but I hope it's something. :S

Bad Idea Leads to Great Finds

So, as previously noted in this bloggy blog, half my hurr is purple.
That being said, I think the bubblegum sented hair dye as seeped its way into my brain. My proof is that I decided to go jogging today. Yes, jogging. It's been 4 years, at least, since I've done any sort of work out.
I was pretty pathectic, not going to lie. Could hardly make it a minute of straigth jogging. But I forced myself at the end to run for at least 3 minutes with out break. I walked for most of the time, but I still think I almost broke a lung.
This is hard to believe, but I swear it happened! Here is a picture to prove it. See these beautiful hills? I thought, "I should take a picture as proof for my blog."
When in reality, I was making excuses to myself to take a break.

Look how beautiful the outside world looks.

I was so tired when I got back, I passed out in the bed of my truck staring at the leaves while I felt my whole body move with the fast beating of my heart.

There was minimal oxygen in my brain to say the least. 

I would have pushed myself harder but am going on a 2-4 mile hike tomorrow morning with my mom. I'm actually really excited for it, but know that I will be quite tired.
I told Jake about it and he said: "Amanda, you're not going to make it."
I chuckled, us both knowing that he wouldn't last, either.

So this is my 'reward' from the Godly creatures that live in space/the sky for working out today:

I go to get my special spinich speghattie noodles that my mom got me ages ago to make for dinner. I have asked Jake a million times if he wanted me to make him dinner (leaving out the spinich part) and he said no thanks. Well, if that boy would have said yes at least once, I would have found my MIA pay checks wayy sooner! I WAS SO EXCITED! I have been missing both of them for sooo long! And one expires in a couple days so I need to deposit it ASAP. But that's about 900+ bucks there. B-]
That means I can buy myself a dress for Fanime. >:DDD
Saving it for moving out? Yes, well I will have some left over for sure to do that.
But I was so excited to find those. Jake of course had a face and told me, "Amanda, you really need to take better care of important things like that."
I know I was stupid and forgetfull, but I can predict the future (no one believes me ;]) and knew I would find them again.
So after shoving those in my purse and sending Jake home, I made a delicious dinner for myself. The speghettie is fantastic! And my dad made (safeway select) pork buns so I treated myself to carbs even though I said I wouldn't. I don't get pork buns much. :)

That is all for today.

Wish me luck on the hike tomorrow. :) It's a Sierra's Single's hike, but I'm going on it for my mom and most of the people are her age anyway. She wanted to go on the Gay/Lesbian hikes because they get the best areas, but Mel said no thanks. I told my mom I would go with her and she could say: "Oh, I'm not gay, but my daughter is and I'm here to support her!" My mom gave me a funny look, but I think it's a good idea. >:D

Bro.

My hurr.

So What's New?

My soulmate said I needed to blog.
And it's true. I knew that I was being lazy but just ignored my 'responsibility' to blog.
Meh.
But kinda a big thing happened. Well, a big thing for sure.
I finally quite my job at Target. Fucking hatted it there. I'm sad to go because I'm going to miss (most) of my coworkers, but, like I told my "boss," I don't want to work in an environment that makes me unhappy. And everyday I think "What will go wrong today?"
She just looked at me like "OH. Well, I didn't expect this." She tried to make excuses but I shot her down, telling her that the problem was with the upper management, and not you 'little world' as she put it.
Now I know why they never cared, they saw us in our own 'little world' in our Starbucks kiosk.
But whatever. I'm happy to leave overall. I don't have a job set up now, but a couple options are presented. For now, I just want to go to FanimeCon and be happy for awhile. I'm so stressed with so much in my life, I need time to just step back and figure it all out. Going from not having a real job to full time work really did me in.

Fanime is the best thing that happens for all of us. It makes us all feel like we really are 15 again, but with no parents. We get to 'run around' unattended, following our own rules for 3 1/2 days. It's magical. I feel like me again. Stupidly, none of us have booked a hotel room, but I think we will manage. My magical future predicting skills say so. I already bought my ticket, which means that I'll probably have to stand in a long ass annoying line, but have a permanent badge and not just a paper one.
I think I will wear only lolita to Fanime. Last year I was too much of a girl and brought too much to wear, but this year I think I'll bring my dresses and then maybe one change of clothes because I don't want to get too hot.
And I found my camera charger (more like whomever 'borrowed' it returned it. It was just sitting on my desk the other day. Came from NOWHERE.).

Forever 21 might be hiring at the end of May so when I get back from Fanime, I'm going to turn in an application. But by then I will have purple in my hair so I'm going to have to buy a wig...I think I'll just keep it a secret because I really don't like that I can't have colors in my hair. It's important to me to express myself. Having wild hair, piercings and hopefully my wing tattoos all help me paint my canvas. I think I'll try seeing if Hot Topic is hiring, even though I haven't shopped there since I was 16. But I still love lots of their accessories.

But yeah, I bought purple dye today. Not my normal brand because the website is STILL OUT OF IT. It's been at least a month. I'm really pissed. But this other brand I've used before and it didn't seem bad so I'm giving it a shot. It's cheater and I got it at Sally's instead of ordering online. Tomorrow, I'm going to finally do my roots and then add the purple for the last day of work. I'm being rebelious because they started to get cranky about my blondish/black hair. Our "boss" was asking Shanter (she left too! I miss her already. :c I was looking through old pictures and saw the pumpkin carving ones. But that's when Stella almost...) if my hair was acceptable.
Shanta (being a *bux employee for 4 years total): "Well, all I know is that it has to be natural colors to someone."
'Boss': "Yeahhhhhhhhhhhhh. But it's two different colors!"

Fuck you. You're a stupid bitch. I'm a TARGET EMPLOYEE. So therefor, the I can do WHAT I WANT. I was told so when I was hired. And I don't care if I'm in the *bux kiosk being told to look 'Starbucks Brand.' If you want us to follow *bux rules, then make us *bux employees. Bitch. So my purple hair on my last day is me saying "GO FUCK YOURSELF."
And I've been wearing just a hairnet like a lunch lady lately because it was so freakin' hot during frappy crappy hour, and the hat kept falling in my eyes. Two leaders that KNOW NOTHING ABOUT OUR KIOSK came over and asked "Shouldn't you be wearing a hat?!"
"No. It's a hat or hairnet."
"Well, I think it's suppose to be both."
"No, we were told either or."
"Well, let me go check with Waldo."
I just gave a puzzled expression. WALDO? He doesn't know anything about our department! All he does is sign the cleaning log every night! SHUT UP AND GO DEAL WITH YOUR DEPARTMENT. FUCKERS.

On a happier note, I started reading The Hunger Games and fell in love. I hate that there is so much hype about it, and I haven't seem the movie yet but don't really like who they picked for Katniss yet. And I think Katniss is being annoying about Peeta. I think she loves him, but is just being a stupid girl.
I broke my record and read the book in 2-3 days. Jake gave me his old, crappy eReader but I'm happy with it. I'm now on the second book.

Ok, I think that's everything 'important.'

Oh Target Shoppers...

Just talked to a guy in line about smoking and drinking. He was upset that Target's policy is to swipe an ID or if you don't want to do that, you put in their birthdate and a team lead approves it.

"What a stupid system," he said
"Well at least it keeps underage kids from buying alcohol," I chime in.

Than he goes on to talk about how if kids want things, they will find a way. He grew up in Europe and smoked his first cigarette at 9 that he stole from his father's shop and started to drink at 12. I didn't say anything, but am slightly appalled. Though he looks 50 or 60 so that was a different era not to mention continent (hence only slightly appalled).
And then he asks the age for drinking here (in America).

"It's 18, right?"
"Nope. 21 to drink. 18 is for smoking and lotto cards. 21 for drinking and purchasing alcohol and gambling in Vegas," I say with a smile because I do not agree with him.

I being only 20 myself, think the drinking at 21 is a good law because we are still young and uneducated about life when we are 18 (well, most of us). I never have drank much at all and have yet to become drunk.

Anyway, I got the feeling he was an alcoholic because why else would you be buying at 12 of Corona at 10:30 at night? If it were a party, I feel he would have gotten more or hard liqueur. Not to mention his scraggly appearance and grumpy personality did not look party ready.

Or maybe he's just European.

Yesterday...

Had an interview for Kinder's.
Don't tell Target!

I felt like a working mama. :)

OOTD: Day and Evening :)

My previous post indicated how this outfit helped me decided for sure to be a fashion major.

I was skepticle this morning before I left about the skirt. No idea why. I love the contrast of the tulle and the denim. :)

Finally got to wear these!! I've had them for almost a year and just haven't gone out in the right outfit. Or I chickend out. ;c But not today! It was amazing. :DDDD

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I got Stella another fashion collar, too. :) It matches my Colorful Hearts dress.

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And for tonight, we are having a mini birthday LAN for Zach and shorts seemed like a better decison.

And I REALLY want to wear my Halifax shirt =3=;;;.

I feel super awesome, though. The shirt fits perfectly with the outfit.

I threw on the new shoes as well and some more bracelets.

SHAZAM.

Best 4/20 evarh. c:

THRIFTINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

Had some errands to run today and decided

"WHY THE HELL NOT? THRIFING TIME!!!"

This was mostly inspired because of the outfit from today (will be next post). Long story short, someone told me my outfit was very cute and asked if there was a special occation. My response?

"Naw. I'm a fashion major so it's always like this. <chuckle>"

Yeahhhhh

So in the car, I was super happy to have delicious Jamba and to have finally decided to be a fashion majorerrrr. I just kept shouting

"I'M A FASHION MAJOR. NO REALLY. FOR CEREAL. I'M A FASHION MAJOR.

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY."

Anywaho, the Goodwill (right next door to Salvation Army) is usually more expensive and doesn't have as good of a selection. So after I popped into the Goodwill, I went the the Salvation Army and found these goodies. :)

There was an extra sale today so everything was $11.50!!!

My plans for this one are to make it a shorter skirt. I have a fun idea for it. ;)

$5.99 $3 !

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Saw the white one at the last second. So cute! And the 'Halifax' shirt. OH GOD I LOVE IT SO MUCH.

I almost wasn't able to fit my head though the hole <snicker>. But it's just so awesome.

I was very much in a Japanese-Fashion state of mind today. =3=

Both shirts $1.99 $1 each!

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I've been wanting manly shoes!

$6 $3 !

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I already own this dress in pink. Unfortunaly, I paid full price several years ago.

But I was surprised to see it in the Salvation Army because this dress is at least 3 years old!

And it's my size. :) Love those odds.

$6.99 $3.50 !

Denim Shirt DIY: SUPER EASY, BRO.

This is what I did instead of dying my hair magical colors, BTW.

So I bought this second hand from a girl maybe two years ago. Yeah, that sounds right. To be honest, no idea why I got it. I was never a fan of denim anything but jeans. For whatever reason, I got it though and now I'm very happy I did! Saw a tweet earlier about denim being super popular in Japan right now so when I got home I was like; "HEY. SEWING MACHINE. YOU'VE BEEN SITTING ON MY FLOOR STUBBING MY TOES FOR HELLA DAYS. TIME TO PUT YOU TO WORK."
So I did. And here's a mini tutorial on what I did. :)
GET INSPIRED, PEOPLE.

For starters; Sorry but phone cam pics it is!

So first, get an ugly/boring denim top. Yay...

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Measure out the length of lace you want. I had less than I thought so I didn't go all the way up and down. But I like it that way anyways. :)

NOW PIN THAT SHIT.

No- NOT YOUR FINGERS.

OUCH. DAMN IT. 8 Bloody times?! Really?

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And if you're Stella, you get mad that your mama can't play right now and attack her stinky work shoe instead.

Probably smells like coffee and broken dreams...

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Prep your sewing machine!

This can also be done by hand sewing, but I didn't feel like pinning myself THAT much.

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Now I'm being Stella and got distracted. My attention span battles that of a goldfish.

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Start sewing! Yay!

I was a dumbass and put it practically on top of the buttons.

CRAP.

Luckily, I was able to just pushed them aside so they were not crushed by the foot or had to be removed. @A@;;

PHEW.

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Yay! But It still needed more...

So I added some to the collar. c:

But still, MOAR.

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Even though I wanted to keep this on the plain side so I can mix and match is more

(had to resist the VERY, VERRRRY strong urges to put BOWS)

it still felt like it needed something. So pearl beads! YAYAYAYAAYAYYAYYAYAYAY

(those were hand sewn on)

As you can see, I just rolled up the sleeves. I was going to cut them off, but decided not to because I want to be able to wear it as a extra layer and not just a spring/summer shirt.

AND SHAZAHM. You're done! That was easy, right?

Oh, you went over the top and sewed your shirt and didn't just upcycle?

GET OUT.

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6 am Start

Was woken up at 6 by Target because the opener called out. I asked Stella if I should say I can come in early and she said yes.
So now I'm exhausted.
Working on a day that there is a call out is so difficult. It's a battle. The LOD's hardly give two shits, let alone one, so you're left trying to float on your own. Thankfully, today was better than some.
I got off at 3:30 and feel pretty tired. Going to try and take a nap and then play some WoW with Jakeums. :)

Jake's dad had gotten Panda earlier and I've been craving it so I lucked out with that one. Jake is mowing the lawn but his dad is out there too so it would be weird for me to just sit out there and watch him. I love watching him work. ;) Especially since it's warm out and he will probably end up taking off his shirt.
<3 <3 <3 <3 :-)))))))))))))

Stella misses my soulmate, too. <3

I Love My Baby!

Lolita Day :)

This is the first official dress I ever got. So it holds a special place in my lacy heart. <3